Changing mental attitude

Over the years I have swung backwards and forwards between a positive and negative attitude to life and things in general. The last 10 years have been hard with the loss of important people affecting me much more deeply that I could have ever expected.

My attempts and filling the voids left with gadgets and toys has left me feeling even more lost but slowly I have started to clear a path and work on improving myself.

However, the last 3 years have seen my work life balance has hit a road block with a distinct loss of time and a dread when I take time off that things are going wrong. I have delayed my Degree for the last 2 years due to work and feeling unable to commit the require time and resources, which at times has started to frustrate me.

On the plus side I can see our mortgage coming to an end in 4-5 years and the freedom that brings. My hope is to now aim to reduce my work load and shift to a 3-4 months a year role in support of projects, I just need to get the buy in from those looking for my expertise, for what its worth.

When I left the IT sector in 2004 I had a feeling I wasn’t actually contributing or making a difference, I’m getting to that point now with this role although I know thatโ€™s not right on a daily basis I have started to feel my knowledge is not being utilised in the way I would have expected, finding myself in commercial settings more than I would like. I guess thatโ€™s what happens when you grow up.

Me I’d be happy with a low wage and time to play games and do those silly projects I have planned for years, but never had the time to do. Even if I just waste the time at least it is mine to waste then and I will be the one choosing to waste it ๐Ÿ˜‰

In other news I have a CO2 Laser and have been playing with it, it’s only (ha!) a 40w version and I don’t have any air assist for cutting but I’m finding it interesting to play with and have some plans to upgrade certain aspects of it like adding a Raspberry Pi to it releasing my PC from having to be tethered to it for operations.

Covid19 – Yes still having a huge impact I’m still working from home and starting to feel the strain of not being able to meet people and get an idea for what they’re really playing at.. Subterfuge and all that it brings is harder to discern remotely.

I am starting to lose a lot of respect for more and more people as they fall for the stories (and they are stories) on YouTube happy to ignore the facts. I fully expect to go into meetings soon with flat earthers in charge and being told to be ware when we send out vessels they should stay away from the edge of the world. I really wish that was a joke.. ๐Ÿ™

Anyway stay safe out there and please don’t just believe crap om the internet do your own research (and please make sure its a proper research not just some crack pot saying what you want to hear).


  1. Bubble says:

    Well well well, you are still this side of the ethereal plane!!!!! ๐Ÿ˜‰
    Good to hear from you. I wish you both a happy Christmas and a better new year ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Chain says:

    Hey fella,
    Good to hear from you, hope you are both well and keeping busy.
    As you can see I’m still kicking even busy as hell, who would have thought I would be doing this those many years ago.

    I may give you a call at some point for a catch up.

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